I don’t run away

As many people who read me have figured out, well, I’m just weird.
My mother is not in great health.
And there is when I come in, I’m usually a fuck up when things go well,
I get into fights, drink, I do have anger issues.
But, I found this while my time in the army that when the shit hits the fan
I’m calm and focus( I stay Frosty),and if I have to walk to the North Pole and back that is
what I will do. No drinking no nothing, just thinking of the welfare of those
who need my help. Specially being my mother. So went to the hospital with her,
back to her house to be with her beloved dog and feed the dog, back to my rent
shitty room to pay rent and do some errands my mother needed to do in the town,
and clean the house wich is a pretty big one by the way is not like cleaning my
shitty room I rent. And when talking to her always calm, my father gets more annoyed
so she prefers in this cases only, that I be around plus even as a fuck up I end up
making her laugh, and laughter is one cure, plus since she can’t walk too much obviously
take care of whatever she wants while she is lying down.
Now I’m back at my mother’s house. I thought the doctors where going to tell her
to stay in the hospital bed, just got the call that she is coming home so that is
good news.
That is a strange dichotomy of me, I’m usually a fuck up and when things get hard
I stay Frosty.

So Stay Frosty gents and gentesses.


  1. Sorry to hear that your mum is unwell. You are good to be around for her whilst she is ill and help do her chores plus walk her dog. This is not you as a “fuck up” but a son who is trying best. If staying frosty calms you then so be it. Give self a pat on the back. My best wishes for your mum’s speedy recovery. Garfield hugs🤗🤗💕💕🐾🐾

    1. Thank you kitty cat, you got to look up my definition of staying frosty though, that in essence to be calm and collected, she’ll be alright hopefully, not easy to see her like that, now I know how they felt when I was in the hospital or with the army, it’s almost worst to be the people looking from the outside than to be the “patient”, as numerous times I have been near death I made peace with it long time ago, but to be the caretaker I think is even worst

      1. You know what Charly? I believe you are good kid inside through and through, with alot of love and kindness to give. I am sure your mum can see this in you and your love for her. Just as much as she loves you. So continue to stay on track and we are all very proud of you. Garfield hugs🤗🤗💕💕

      2. Thank you for the compliment, but I am 35, so not all that kid, the things I have been through my life a very small percentage of the, even the US population would experience, but you are right I still have that silly kid inside me, just me.
        Hugs back Garfield.

      3. What?!!! First of all how would a person know if it is a “she” or “he”, and second, I don’t believe he or she is inanimate, he or she is real, I know it.

  2. I hope Charly,

    that your mother will be ok.In hard times, we have to keep the cold head.
    “The opposite of anger is not calmness, its empathy.” Mehmet Oz

    1. That is what is strange of me, in these type of situations I’m calm, my hand doesn’t tremble plus I make my silly jokes and she has a lagh plus the house chores and the rest that is being a caretaker, she’ll be fine, gotta be positive. Thank you for the comment Ben.

  3. My heart goes out to you about your Mom. I can’t imagine the pain you are going through with her being ill. I so hope that your Mom gets better ASAP. If you need to talk I can lend an ear.
    Please remember to take care of you well you are taking care of her.

    1. You said it, in these type of situations I have a mindshift, always has been like that I don’t know why, but the booze goes away, no anger, just calm and concentrate all my energies not all but most since I have to live my life too, but as much as I can to be with her watching the t.v for example so she is not that bored sitting alone all day, plus the house chores and those kind of things. She’ll be fine with time, she a hard ass woman.

  4. well sending prayers and I can just say that for me – God has really given me strength and wisdom and change is possible amigo… so I pray for you that God would help you to not be a f-up….

    1. I told you, I said it, when things get tough my mentality changes, I don’t be a f…up and the people I care about knows this, that is why mh mother calls me in this times, to go here there and everywhere, plus I make her laugh, it is a strange dichotomy of me.
      I just react, and I have the saying that stook out from an early age from “daaaady”, wich was something like this, ” you got to do what you got to do and no saying no” or something like that…… point being “amiga” in this situations I grow, my head is leveled, I stay calm and as I said for my love ones if I have to go to the north pole and back, that I do in a second. Comprende?

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