I feel like I´m drowning

Mother died today at 3.44 a.m ( I promised to her this was the last post about her
yet is kind of a therapy to tell you the truth)
that´s it.
I don´t feel like drowning but it seemed like a catchy title,
her last wish is not to get down,
so up! and be a mother fucker gunner hunter and bad writer.
Sorry for the curse words mom, but you know me,
very weird not having you to say this to you and you laughing at me….
I know you would say stop this and that but at the end of the day I did make you laugh
with my crazy hazy, last post about you don´t worry.
Love ya to death, and yes mom, it is very weird but this writing in public it seems
for good and bad, some type of yoga for me. You know you had a weird kid,
and she is and was a hooootie! Very good looking woman, she was going to be Mrs. Spain,
and more hooootie! Having raised me by her own since dad was constantly traveling and working,
a hotie inside is what I was going to say, she is trully the personification of good inside and out.
Just a beautiful woman in all the senses. I did put the sheat over your head when father comes,
don´t want him to see you in that face, so we are good to go mom. By the way, how the fuck did I came out
so weird? Only me, but I still remember you laughing at my crazy things I told you, about the girls the parties,
but you do have to give me some credit, I did “church it up” pretty good, but who was I fooling? Nobody,
but you did laugh,
crazy son, how in the world you were able first to raise me and later in life not send me to the pasture?
You are that, my mother.
Told ya woman, the last post, ofcourse I have to write it for the public consumption and as you told me
I will be smarter to get some money out of this shit.

44 comments

    1. If I did something correctly in life was being with her for 9 or 10 days, not easy obviously seeing her deteriorate, but at least in a selfish manner I can say that I was with her to the end, literally. And her last face she saw before she went into a comma was this crazy guy that she had as a son.

  1. My condolences. Losing a mother is hard. Mine died in 2013 and I still miss her. My dad is alive, but had a stroke and is in a nursing home. Sometimes he doesn’t know who we are. Losing a parent is hard. God bless you!

    1. We´ll be good, came from a strong familly and the leat my mother wanted is for me and father to be in a low point, got to move forward.
      Again appreciate very much you taking the time to comment

  2. “a hotie inside is what I was going to say, she is trully the personification of good inside and out.
    Just a beautiful woman in all the senses. I did put the sheat over your head when father comes,”
    Just love to you.
    And you know it’s true Charly.
    Heading over the seas and sky,
    to you from me.
    Please take good care of yourself Charly.
    Afterall,
    you are your mother’s son,
    and you are the most important person,
    she left here on earth.

    1. Appreciate it very much Frederick, I thought of posting now a post with the title “thank you” since now seeing all the comments of support is quite amazing, there are good people out there.
      Thanks for your comment.

      1. Yes! I can’t even imagine your pain. It is a long healing process in your heart, but I do believe that God can carry you and give the love that you need ♥️

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