You´re a tough motherfucker

Those where the words my father told me when mother passed away this
past Sunday the 14th. He is the real tough motherfucker, I think I´m tough
because apart from having been in the Spanish Legion and all the fights I get in
this shit town, no I´m not tough. This man, my father was born after the Spanish Civil war,
obviously poor, and he made his journey to greatness. That greatness would include being married
for 50 years to my mother. Although as my mother told me, but there is a descerpancy on the story
from what my mother told me to what the “official” version of my father, he basically was
driving in a shit car of the 60´s and just went off the little trail and ended up in the
bottom of a little pond with my mother, and then mother married that guy!!!!
Just little details of their life, now his life since he doesn´t have the support of mother,
(I did stay with her in the hospital 9 days until she died, at exactly 3. 44 a.m,
she probably died earlier since she was already cold, no rigamortis but cold, so it wouldn´t
be that long that she expired) but it seems this tragedy came out some remedy, we talk often,
which is weird talking to my father to tell the truth, I know he loves me but the conversations
where this
Me calling and him answering “You o.k?”
Me-“yes”
Him-“good, I pass you to your mother”
Thats about it, and you can´t expect a man like him to give you more. You do know he loves you,
that´s the bottom line.
Now…. I do believe my mother knowing she was going to die, did give hime instructions,
“this is who your kid is and this is how you are going to treat him. That is my law”
Maybe not the exact words but she probably said something to that effect I´m sure knowing these two.

3 comments

  1. Your late mum really doted on you and I am glad you are taking care of your dad and that he is checking in on you too. Perhaps you can go live with him? Is that possible?

    1. That would be a pretty bad decision to live back with my dad at age 37, he is 70 we check on each other daily we talk about our things and what I do know about my father is that even if he is dying he won´t cry, he will tell you by phone he is doing great. So the least he needs is for a crying baby type of person, he didn´t married my mother for her weaknesses, she was also a tough motherfucker, so the best you can do with these type of people that are not the “cushy cushy” type is call them one time a day or at this point as I said in some post he is the one calling me, never happened in my 37 years I sort of know this man, but the best thing is to live him alone, I did call him on Monday to say if tomorrow Friday he wanted me to swing by his home, help him out with the dog (that now the dog has phisical problems) clean the house, make some meals, since he is a very good cook but for him cooking and then working on his projects….. he can´t do both, so he just eats good food from good places but not healthy so that does scare me at his age. But you can´t talk to him like that, just make little and very subtle suggestions and always the voice not craking, a calm voice, and once in a while he does appreciate when I say something dummy but basically saying how much his works is of value. He did say “thank you and a hug” to me by phone yesterday. That´s good enough, he is healthy, mentally strong. and he definitely doesn´t need the fuck up child he now realizes he had to move in with him.

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