smile charly

What happened between that me and the now weird me?
Just life,
There is no wife…. don´t care about that.
Getting played too much….might be.
For me,
Why? I ask myself that before that I was aware,
I could handle that share.
It is not a sin to get knocked down, it´s a sin to not get up.
I better fucking start smiling, and not drinking.
Fucking being drinking and depressed…..I have to clean that mess
I believe and hope that you don´t care
That would be a scare.
But I feel better writting it out and worst in public,
Let´s go Charly Brown out and about.
(This shit is turning into a diary….so be it)

Stay Frosty gents and gentesses.


depression,hard to tell so I just….yeeellllll!!
didn’t get out of bed for two days, fuck me and a fucked up bee
i do know something about me, and that is…..hummmmm….
i get the fuck up, it might be two days but you know who
gives me a pinch in the ass, mother mother! yes mams and sirs,
i’m a 34 year old man that she literally tells you to not be a pussy,
a man….. probably been through harsher times than quite a bunch
of you, but again who is to say who to a who, so now we are
in the mood, just that. That shitting thing, hold it there,
gonna give a shout out to one bitch….. sorry, not worth it to name her.

Stay Frosty gents and gentesses.


He was feeling low
Felling like a disgusting black crow,
Lazy and slow.

Two days later….

He was feeling high
And felt it was time to stop his act of cry,
The tears stopped so he was flying high in the sky.

He had been knocked mentally down
He felt like a real clown

He then got up
He now was no longer a bunch of crap

Stay Frosty gents and gentesses.

The method

There is the method
not made by the chemist Todd

Is easy and complicated
but if you follow it will not be wasted

The name,
fake it ti´ll you make it
you name it

Feeling down?
be a clown
a clown of happy face
for people to see and embrace

You might feel shitty inside
doesn´t mean you have to portray it to the outside

Put a mask
that´s the task

Eventually over time, you´ll find your own rhyme
which entails, that inside your entrails you will
become that mask, maybe doesn´t work for everyone
but at least for someone,so, the mask…
you will become that person
so out goes the depression.

Stay Frosty gents and gentesses.


Sorry about the curse word, just felt like getting it out. The saying goes, some days we have limited space for others, and I don´t like that. That means you are too immerse in yourself, you are thinking too much about you´re own problems, you are feeling pity for yourself, you are basically feeling miserable. And that´s what happened to me these past 4 days. And you know what…..FUCK that. I hate that feeling, so today I got out of bed and said to those little demons inside my head to go off on vacation, a vacation to Mars or to the end of the galaxy to never return or at least to return in a very very long time. I hadn´t been down like this in quite some time. And I hate it.

I was grumpy, everything and everyone annoyed me. I didn´t feel like talking, I just felt like sinking in bed and staying there and that is not the way to go. I know everybody has bad days, but I don´t like my bad days. I have handled worst things in my life than what happened to me recently so what the hell was I thinking in getting so low.So when the saying says some days we have limited space for others, you know what I say to that, you guessed it that! I have people around me who care for me and I have people also who depend on me. So what do I do, just left them hanging for 4 days….not cool. I felt selfish, and I maybe a bit selfish but not a complete selfish asshole. So as for now you know what the saying says….Get the hell up and stay up.

Just a thought, now going to read some of my too cool to go to school bloggers.

Stay Frosty gents and gentesses.