personal diary

The calm voice

Probably got that one from my father would be my guess,
let it some rest.
Talked to him direct about mother
things are a bother,
that caaaaalm voice
throw a dice,
I threw that dice being in the military
i was wise,
you think I´m doing this for me?
Maybe or not really,
could care less about me really.
Just a calm voice. Stay Frosty gents
O shit, and gentesses. ( Who is going to pay me for inventing that word? Hello? Brothereese.)

Calm voice

He, my father did call me, my first question was how was my mother.
And with that calm voice…. no wonder his job is to solve problems.
What a man,
and me crying like a little bitch.
Did not happen to me in my military experience and after in my early days,
I was the one who learned from others that is, and training the mind to be calm
and project that to others. If not calm and went a bit nutty just smack them.
Project… whatever you want to call it, for me it was calm. True or not what
father said, I believe him. Mother is doing good in the situation, she´s good.
What a man.
And what a lady

Out of here, too many posts in one day that you HAVE TO LOVE.
Read you latter you animator.

Rant!!! (over 18?) Long…

Fuck, have no idea if tu put over 18 in now too politically correct society,
or just put (over 0.5) Parents is your decision and obligation to know what your kids read.
Not about that, going here there and where? Gonna be long so I expect to get a lot of
LIKES and FOLLOWS since it´s me. This looks like a diary and diary is personal I´m just
crazy and write it for the public to enjoy, my misery, my gladness (some), my fuck it now.

We as a family make a good team, my father for his nature is not able to be on top day in
day out on top of my mother, It´s been 1 month or more that I literally became from a “cool”
infantry soldier, kill or be killed literally ( 37 now, military experience happened
between 2001 almost 2002 to 2005) to a 24 hours caretaker. I bring up that shit, for a
simple reason, people might say my father is not with her, fuck that shit!
He though his contacts and they are high level, brought the best team of experts on
my mothers cancer to not treat her as a “usual”. She is the queen of him, he will move
rocks in the atmosphere if necessary for her to get the best doctors. But is just not
in him to see the day to day fuckness, so that is our team. I am able to see it, hence
I revert to my military practice that to tell you the truth you got to be born with it,
forget about military, you are either calm and have empathy to a point since if you are
mentally to involved you do not react well to the person that you are looking out for,
so STAY fROSTY-calm, cool, collected, and other adjectives. Good ones that is and it only
happens to me in extreme circumstances hence my father knows so he puts me on that part ot the team.

In my mind while I was..fucking shit fuck! I just like that word,
“No pidas peras al olmo” It is a Spanish saying, My father love my mother obviously and got the best
doctors and a private hospital in Spain, which is rare the private hospitals here in my country.
We do have one payer system. Actually that saved me being able to go without paying….except all the
years I paid the government for my work, including the military and scary but loved it.

Pissed off really, even with the hot nurses, I find myself like a bloodhound. Did she (mother) take
that pill or did you change it? The nurses say “we have to check” go back to the head doctor of all
and ask him to give me the ” chart” of all the meds at what time they give her,

Now with these rich people in this hospital …fuck that that would be too long to write and now seeing the hot
nurse next to me while I´m writing but I do pause to phisically go to their “station” and if they don´t give
mother their correct medicines… chewed up one pretty nurse the other day, it´s against my animal! Insticts!
She wa hotie didie but gave her two times the morphine prescribed, so that is a NO NO for me.

I thought I would write something more insulting or controversial…fuck it, although I´m still flirting with
a 20 year old nurse…what the fuck was this? so there we go


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