love

tears fall in you

You see? But not really,
are you being silly?
My tears are drowning me, for you.
I might not express myself, put that in the shelf,
I did learn some years ago that people are not dumb,
That is why my tears fall.

Stay Frosty gents and gentesess.

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read you latter alligator( My weird tribute to my mother)

alligator…..just had to express my self to you,
you do a good work in keeping my mind,
have been in the army and deployed, so sometimes i do,
find myself annoyed.
First I called my mother, but always with a positive side,ride!
she does not know my aggressive side. I do have maybe a sneaky suspicion
that she actually might have known that I do call her talking really about bullshit,
I also have the real sneaky suspicion that she doesn´t really know how far I can go….
but if she does know she knows that if her voice comes up it calms me down,
so just hearing her voice calms me. Go figure this woman.Or me.
Latter I write in this blog, it also calms me.
I saaaaid read you latter you..people? Because I want to learn.

Stay Frosty gents and gentesses.

a letter to Sara (part 2. End)

Sara responds.

dear Bob i received your letter that i drenched in water. so much
blabbering, sobbing,it´s just disgusting. does it sting? my words
are like daggers i hope you bleed to death. Bob, really, get over it,
see a psychiatrist, i said psychiatrist not a dentist. my name is not
Sara, sir i´m a 15 year old girl named…i´m not going to tell a creep
like you out of the blue. I hope you seek clinical help and stop the
harassment with, this first and last letter!

Stay Frosty gents and gentesses.

A letter to Sara (part 1)

give me a decimal of a chance Sara, it will be the last chance to show you
i can dance. i made thousands of mistakes before, i know, but the wind blows
now in the right direction. i have said that before with lure, this time i
can tell you why is different.i found God he lead me to sobriety, it has been
a long and difficult road, it has been 40 years now sober i´m not that young ogre.
i want to be yours Sara. my heart has always had a picture of you in my heart stuck
in it, needles in my heart making it bleed slowly but surely. i´m almost out of
blood left now. give me that decimal chance to show you before i die. it is my
last wish of this old sinking fish.

Stay Frosty gents and gentessess.

wondering about women

Humans fascinate me, me included. I´ll try to make it short….fuck that.

I´m not a Brad Pitt, but why do I have sex with a lot of women?
No idea and I´m thinking while blinking…sorry had to rhyme.
I have been in a relationship with a narcissist-psyochopath.
After studying her, and I won´t go into details of what she did to me,
that is that crazy bitch behaviour and she is that. Period.

Also there are women who I myself call ¨normal¨. I can talk with them,
even talking about this other narcissist-physopath, and they will say,
one thing, stop being around her. And they are right.

At the same time, I talk to these women who unlike myself have a husband and kids, good jobs,
and it seems in the outside everything is great.
They are good looking women, and also the wife´s of my old friends.
My real Friends, four that is, and I´m having sex with their wifes while they have a family.
I don´t know, is it my fault? Is it theirs? Is there a gray zone?

After spending too much time in the underworld you might say, the ¨overworld¨, some, not all obviously,
seems to be strange meaning the certain human relationships at the same time it all looks very normal
in their day to day life.

I´m just a tool for them to play, and I guess it is vice versa
we do have fun in the bar talking about everything, and then the sex.
Again, not all, but human behaviour is quite interesting obviously including myself.

Just wondering. I wrote this long time ago and just published it in this great blog.

The only exception, the only perfect woman…..my mother. That you better believe or I can cut your knee.

Stay Frosty gents and gentesses.